Tuesday, December 27, 2005


Bakit kaya hindi ka maaring maging akin?
Dahil ba hindi sapat ang pagtingin?
Pinapanalangin ko ang iyong pagdating
Ngunit, Bakit nga ba nagkaroon ng ganitong taning?

Bihag ako ng simpleng paghanga
Tama bang ako’y mahulog na?
Sana’y humingi ka nang abiso na darating ka
Para ako’y nakapaghanda, at hindi nadapa

Sinasabi nila na hindi tayo maaring maging isa
Sino nga naman ako.. Sino nga ba?
At Kung bakit mahalin ka’y akin nang natutunan?
Kaya panaginip man ay sumasapat na sa kagustuhan

Hindi naman sa kinahihinayang kong nakilala kita
Oo, masaya. Wala nang makahihigit pa.
Ngunit dahil dun, ako’y hinampas ng katotohanan
Marahil ang ilusyon ay sadyang ilusyon lamang..

****I cant believe i had this pic with kuya mcoy fundales of OnL..****

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OMG!!! he's really nice and accomodating to everyone..

btw, am with june and oman...

-karen :D

Monday, December 26, 2005


Bakit kaya ang buhay,
Di lahat ay pantay-pantay?
Mayroong perpekto ang itsura
Meron namang pangit ang pustura

Di ko malaman kung ano ba talaga
Ang hanap ng mga taong mapanghusga
Inaaligaga ang aking isip, di maipinta
Dahil sa mga pangungutya’t pangaalipusta

Mabait naman ako kung maituturing
Ngunit hindi nila kailangan ng mabait
Ang hinahanap nila ay mga magagandang binibining
Maipagmamalaki at kahit saan ay maaring bitbit

Kung maari ko lang palitan ang sistemang ito
Dali-dali at walang habas, gagawin ko
Di lang para sa mga katulad kong normal
Kundi para rin sa mga taong nawalan na ng dangal

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

uhhh... its been a really long time since ive been here...

ive done so many things..
ive experienced weird happenings..

now, am down..
you will be the first to see me like this..

so sad the time is this short..

to share you what i really feel...


Tuesday, October 11, 2005

===Nervous for my speech tomorrow.. ===

soooo nervous... you know.. i am not a public speaker..
i know am talkative and stuffs but i really dont speak that well specially
in front of so many people..
i really screw on that aspect..

anyway.. di ba i told you guys about my new crush?!

gosh.. soo kilig.. we always see each other.. and he always look at me with something... sooo weird..

--karen.. =)

Monday, September 19, 2005

+:+:+:new experience, been wanting to do this for a long time.. i never knew how will i feel.. until i did it.. +:+:+:

it was my first time to do this..
i was really afraid at first..

i never thought it will feel good..
i never thought it will ease my shaking knees..



hahaha.. what did you thought?! <3

we did practice for a intermission number for science day..

LOL.. I WILL SING +:+: ZOMBIE +:+: hahaha..

-ciao! SLEEPY HERE..


Friday, September 16, 2005

+:+:+: dad will be leaving tomorrow.. but hey! am'a get my freedom again.. lol+:+:+:+:

the atmosphere in our house is both sad and happy..
sad because dad will be leaving and he will go for about 6 months..

happy because..
our electricity bill will shrink because the person who makes "babad" on the aircon all day will not continue his regimen anymore.. (naaahhh!!! just jokin'!!)

am just making this moment bouncy.. not lonely..

anyway.. been to rolf's house this night.. hahaha.. tiredness..
i slept about 8 pm and i woke up for like 9:30 pm and got home rushing!!

(because am too darn sleepy!!)


Wednesday, September 14, 2005

**+:+:+: i am feeling like am 10 years alone.. :+:+:+****

uhhh.. been lonely since birth..
i really dunno what i am up to..

what do you think??
what will i get if i cry?
what will i gather if i die?

why can't i let go of this pain?
why can't everyone be not a vain?
why can't i put a smile on this face that is plain?

when will i kill this depression?!
when will i learn to smile without pretensions?
when will i stop feeling doomed?

i know only the PERSON up there in the heavens can tell me my worth..
no one really aprreciated me, not my friends, not my family, no one..

not even myself..
not even my writings..
not even this words that i use..

"they can never tell how bad i feel inside.."

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

**i dunno.. i feel so down.. been talking with my tarot forever... **

i really dunno.. am really feeling soo down..

with no valid reason..

how stupid right??


keilenn, regine, phoem, and nad did go to our house and watch shutter..

that moment.. i forgot the things i am worried about..

can somebody bring me up??


Sunday, August 21, 2005

**A story.. with an exciting twist..**

They'd known each other since their school days and had since become the
best of friends. They shared everything and anything and spent lots of
time together in and after school. But the friendship never developed
into anything deeper.
Diane kept a secret: her admiration and love for Jack. She had her
reasons for keeping it a secret. FEAR. Fear of rejection... fear that he
might not feel the same... fear that he might not want to be her best
friend anymore... fear of losing someone that she could always find
comfort in. At least if she kept her feelings to herself she would still
be able to spend time with him... and hopefully, he would be the one to
tell her how he felt towards her.
Time passed, and soon school was over.
Jack and Diane went separate ways. Jack continued his studies overseas,
while Diane got herself a job. They still kept in touch though... penned
letters, sent each other photographs, and mailed each other gifts. Diane
longed for Jack to be back.
She decided that she would tell him her feelings once he got back.
And then out of the blue... the mails from Jack stopped coming. Diane
wrote to him, but there was never a reply. Where was he? What happened?
Lots of questions ran through her mind...
Two years passed and Diane was still hopeful that Jack would come
back... or at least send her a note. And then her prayers were answered.
One mid-August day, she received a note from Jack. It said:

Diane, I have a surprise for you. I'm flying over. Meet me at the
My flight comes in at 4pm on Saturday. I can't wait to see you again!
There's something I need to tell you, something I've been keeping inside
all this time.
Love & Kisses,

Diane's fingers shook as she read the note. Her heart soared.
Diane was thrilled. Love and kisses... it meant a lot for a lady who had
waited so long for t hose words. She was ecstatic!

The day arrived, and Diane waited anxiously for Jack. She had slipped
into her best dress, and did her best to look as pretty as she could.
She looked around... but Jack was nowhere in sight. She waited and
waited, wondering what she would say to Jack when he got there, what
their meeting would be like. Would there be love in his eyes? Would
there be longing, bred from years of separation and hiding each others'

Oh, how she longed to see him! How she longed to throw her arms around
him and tell him she was a fool to ever let him go without ever telling
him how she felt! And she was certain Jack felt it too. There was always
a certain magic about them when they were together.

Then a lady in a sexy, tight, blue dress approached her. She had a very
concerned look on her face, "Hi! I'm Lynn, a friend of Jack.
Are you Diane?" she asked. Diane just nodded her head.

"I'm afraid I... I have bad news for you. Jack is not coming... he won't
be coming back anymore," said the lady, placing a hand on Diane's
Diane shook her head in confusion. She felt her heart constrict.

What could possibly have happened? Diane felt an overwhelming fear
inside her. Her hands turned cold. Her voice shook as she asked:
"Where... where's Jack? What happened to him? Please tell me..."

Diane begged the lady...

The lady looked intently at Diane... and then she gave Diane a nudge on
the shoulder and said...


Kawawang Diane, hindi lang nawasak ang puso... inapak-apakan pa ng
lintik na Jack, este Lynn na pala!

**Big BadTrip**

all i can say is that my family left me because i chose to go with the school choir than going to the mall.. wahahahhaaha..

Saturday, August 20, 2005

**HAVING MY MOM AND DAD IS THE GREATEST THING.. having this short talk with my mom tonight,, means a lot!***

my dad and my lil' bro was not around..

as usual.. my mom and i were talking about anything... secrets.. shopping.. hahaha..

we are planning to go shopping tomorrow.. as our spare time for ourselves...

i believe.. my mom was one of God's greatest gift for our family, as well as my dad and

all my relatives...

God and life was been good with our family.. he does not leave our side..

He is always there to guide, & help our family.. that's why i do <3 God..

going back to the topic..
my mom and i were talking about stuffs and it hit her serious side..

i will not divulge on those stuffs anymore but then.. i believe my mom is one of the
kindest person here on our planet...

*thank God i have all of the persons in my life...

--until here..


Friday, August 19, 2005

**Nina: live... earlier...**

==== NINA'S HOT!!! GOODNESS... She's really pretty, plus the fact that she is nice.. and THE QUALITY OF HER VOICE... GREATNESS... ==== Posted by Picasa


uhhh... taken at school earlier... rolf, dyan, me, ellaine and nad.... PRETTIEST!!! Posted by Picasa

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

** Nang Tayo ay Magkita .... **

Araw noon ng huwebes..
umuulan nang walang hinto..
alas kwatro na ng hapon..
ako’y pauwi na galing sa kaantok antok na araw ng pagaaral..
Naisipan kong dumaan sa Jollibee, dahil ako’y gutom na..
nang nakaramdam na ng pagkabusog..
ako’y lumabas na sa lungang pinanggalingan..
sumakay sa jeepney at ang mukha mo’y aking nakita..

** kumikislap ang ating mga mata, akoy nagtataka ...**

** nakatingin ka sakin, at ako ngayoy nahihiya.. **

** tumitig ka pa lalo, ako ay natutunaw ng unti-unti.. **

** sumisimple ang ating mga ngiti… di ko alam.. bakit tayo nakangisi? **

ngunit ang munting oras na tayoy nagtinginan ay malapit ng magtapos..

pababa na ako sa jeepney na ating naging tagpuan..

sa sa-sandaling oras.. ang mga mata natiy muling nagtagpo..

at ngayo’y nagpapaalam na ang aking tingin..

** muli ko pa kayang matikman ang tamis ng iyong ngiti?! **

Sunday, August 07, 2005

me and my friends when they are celebrating my birthday... in our house..

Saturday, August 06, 2005

**UPCAT DAY.. the most mind tiring day of my life.. **

my gosh.. this day was a heck..

i think am really stupid.. to think that i slipped off my feet many times during the day..

this hour i just wanna sleep..

i dunno..

i just wanna hope for the best,, and the best..

my updates: tomorrow.. aight?!


Friday, July 29, 2005


Wandering in darkness grope,
Finding not a glimpse of hope.
Fingers touch to find my way,
Each foot fall, my heart betrays
The fear which drives me through the day.

Suddenly the ground is lost,
Flailing arms as body's tossed.
Splashing down in crimson pool,
The warm embrace is much too cruel,
I curse this lowly, wretched fool.

Floundering in this self made hell,
Warmth increasing as I dwell,
Within the confines I create,
Screaming as myself berate,
Giving in to this, my fate.


I was thinking of us last night
And the times we shared
How good we were
But now we are apart
Yet we still have our
For in our Dreams we are together
Holding hands on the beach
Talking all night under the silver moon
Kissing and holding each other tight
For no matter the distance
Or the obstacle I will always belong to you
For we are meant for each other
not only in reality, but also in our

Sunday, July 24, 2005

==***no classes tomorrow.. am'a get mah good sleep.. but not tonight.. am soo evil i cant sleep..***==


i dunno.. i just hate mah self today..

everything did not go my way today..

my gosh.. i sooo hate THIS DAY!!!!!!!!!

remember the "HARI NG SABLAY VIDEO??!"

that's what happened to me yesterday and today.. as in SHIT!


can you see my being rebellious on these words??!

am a bitch.. i know that..


one reason why i hate this day..

is because my "SO CALLED NEW CRUSH.."

change his hairstyle to a skinhead..


if you can.. I CANNOT!!!!!!!!!!


wanna know my reaction when i saw his head??

i thought..

"yeah.. what's with the look?? did you came from a prison or something??!..."

if you like him just as much as i adore him..


well anyway.. i know that my comment does not matter.. right??


Friday, July 22, 2005

**uhhh.. nervous... for my audition this coming hour***

uhh.. am here over our computer laboratory in our school..
and.. i just finished our project and i did it correctly.. lol..

anyway,, in an hour.. i will be auditioning for a place over our choir here at our school.. nervewracking.. for this will be my first time to share my voice infront of soo many peeps..

just wish me luck..


-karen mae.. :)

Saturday, July 16, 2005

*** Movie/Coffee date with my kuya, his wife, and my lil' bro... ***

uhhh.. it was a darn happy day.. lol..

i came out of school for about 5 pm.. and yeah..
my kuya's been waiting for me and my bro for about an hour so he took a nap while waiting for us.. lol..

after we changed our uniforms to our gimik attire..
we flew in the car..

we did go to robinson's.. ate first at KFC..

bought some tickets..
watched FANTASTIC FOUR!!!!!!!!! Free Image Hosting at www.ImageShack.us

what a great movie.. i believe it'll go well if you will bring the whole family with you to watch it..

great plots and twists.. yeah.. i loved it.. specially Johny Storm/ THE HUMAN TORCH.. which was played by Chris Evans.. (TOO HOT!!!!!!!!)
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well.. after enjoying the movie..

we went to starbucks for some coffee break..

i ordered a strawberries and cream blended coffee.. which tastes ohh so nice.. and a bavarian doughnut.. i really like Starbucks' ambiance and choice of sounds.. very relaxing for the dead hour like 12 am..

i was like too sleepy but after i tasted their coffee.. it's like something..

anyway.. i am also sleepy right now.. and i will attend my UPCAT reviews tomorrow..
at 8 am.. anyways.. good night!!!!!!


-karen.. :)

Monday, July 11, 2005


i cant believe this!!!!!!!

san miguel became the champions..
i prayed hard for this!!
yeah!! God is really goooDDD!!!

congratulations to everyone who believes in smb!!

WE ROCK!!!!!!!


Sunday, July 10, 2005

I still remember that brisk and cool day,
that day we met and my fears were driven away.
Your perfect smile, your joyous laugh,
the way your eyes lit up when we talked about the past.
We would sit and talk for hours on end
about our secrets and our future plans.
Our friendship started to grow much more.
It became a feeling so strong we could not ignore.
You told me, it would be for the best, just wait and see.
Fate. You said, has brought you to me.
We believed those words, we thought they were true,
but I guess they weren't because now we are through.
Now your gone and now I see that it was all because of me.
I hurt so many, yet cared so much,
about the wrong person and felt the wrong touch.
I played a game with two hearts,
I thought I was strong, I'd never be torn apart.
I hope you forgive and I hope that you see,
those feelings I have are smothered inside of me.
Someday soon I hope you will find a love that will last you all of time.
You deserve the best in everything you do.
Maybe someday I will see you, with a smile on your face,
hand in hand with somebody new.
Until that day comes I will be here,
I will be your angel in the light that's so clear.
I'll look out for you when you need me the most,
I will always be around, I will not let you down.
I love you know and I always will, and even though your not mine,
my heart holds you still. on earth,
For this is surely it.


In this silence I love you.
And with this silence I give to you.
In spite of this silence I cherish you.
But still the silence; I don't understand you.
Because of this silence I come to you;
Embraced in silence I hold you.
I've never known such silence, yet it speaks to me.
For with this silence I long to be.
Talk to me in silence.
Speak to me without words of understanding.
Let me not mistake this silence for neglect,
For your silence is love in your own way,
And in your own guarded heart.


Wednesday, July 06, 2005

This Friend (dedicated for mah one self..)

I love having you as a friend,
You make my day brighter,
I'm happy with this friend I've found
Who makes my burdens lighter.
Whenever I see you,
It makes me want to smile,
You were never too cool,
Always in Style.
Don't you ever leave me,
I'll never make you frown,
By your side I'll always be,
Especially when you're down.
Even through the worst of days,
I will be right here,
Watching you through ever faze,
Catching every tear.
You hold my feelings in your hand,
Every single one,
My friendship will forever stand,
Even when the fun is done.
So don't ever forget me,
For I will not forget you,
Here for you I will always be,
No matter what you do.
If others could feel as free,
As I feel with this Friend,
Friendship and warmth is all they'd see,
And love would never end.

***What It Takes To Be A Good Friend***

A good friend is always kind,
Should always speak their mind,
Their compassion should never end,
That's what it takes to be a good friend.

A good friend is there for you,
They are real, they are true- blue,
Their compassion should never end,
That's what it takes to be a good friend.

A good friend will be there when you marry,
A heart full of memories, they will carry,
Their compassion should never end,
That's what it takes to be a good friend.

They'll be there if your mother dies,
They'll weep with you when you cry,
Their compassion should never end,
That's what it takes to be a good friend.

If a good friend you do find,
Make sure they treat you kind,
Understanding they shouldn't lack,
And they would never stab you in the back,
On top of everything always remember,
A best friend is forever.

Sunday, July 03, 2005

uhhh.. been to something really boring today huh??! the story is written above.. NOW READ!!!! <3

Thursday, June 30, 2005



SHutter,, my latest fave movie.. was one of the scariest yet hilarious movie ever...

a thai film.. the cast consists 3 main characters..

-Tun- (the cutest , and he has the deepest secret ever!!)
-Jane- (the innocent girl of tun..)
-Natre- (the scary ghost..)

The story goes..

It started with tonn's wedding party.. (one of tun's buddy..)
They are drinking.. celebrating..

After that,, Tun and Jane decided to go home..
Both of them are telling stories inside the car..
While They were laughing..

a girl crosing by was hit by their car!!

that started the adrenalin of the movie..

and that was the "thought to be conflict" of the said movie..


*********I MEAN IT... REALLY...***************


the hilarious part that am saying is the people in the cinema who watched this movie..

"""""""""AND SCREAMED TO DEATH!!!!!!!"""""""""""

ohhhh my... it's really funny....

i myself cant blame them if they acted like that..
cause the movie will let your throat go down...


until here.. ciao!!


Wednesday, June 29, 2005


******If OnLy*******

If i could turn back time..
i would do my best to make things go right,,
but i know i can't..

and i'll be longing till my next life..
to change these things ive done..

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

******* BEEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!********


*******uhhh,,, looking good even if my brain is shedding blood coz of our math subject.. ******

******ME... AGAIN.. MORE PICS TO COME.. *lol.. *******

Monday, June 20, 2005

sometimes am feeling lucky.. sometimes i feel unfortunate.. sometimes.. things gets on with my way.. most of the time it'll not.. but still.. am not forgetting the virtue of my smile.. which is the essence of the sadness that am feeling right now.. :(
Posted by Karen..

do i have a reason to smile??!! and do i really need a reason to smile??! i dunno.. am not feeling that good.. but still.. i have the guts to smile in this picture.. :)
Posted by Karen..

uhhh.. not really in the mood for something... weird..
Posted by Karen..

Saturday, June 18, 2005

***...Tell me where it hurts.....***

Why is that sad look in your eyes
Why are you crying?
(Tell me now)2x
Tell me why you're feelin' this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby!

Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
And makin' you feel blue
Is there anythin' that I can do

Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make those tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

Where are all those tears coming from
Why are they falling?
somebody, somebody, somebody left your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby
(Give me a chance)
To put back all the pieces
Take hold of your heart
Make it just like new
There's so many things that I can do



Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
makin' you feel blue
Is there anythin' that I can do


Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me baby
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh, and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

Sunday, June 12, 2005

*after going to direk luigi santiago's wake...*


UHH.. well.. am tired.. but still am finding time to make this blog so that my emotions will go somewhere.. not with tears anymore..

when we got to Sanctuario de San Antonio..
everything was quiet..
the ambiance was really peaceful..
and once you've entered the wake..

even if i would like to make believe that maybe God needed him up there..
am still feeling so sorry on how tragic his death is..

but maybe..
God gave him to make some difference/mark over everyone's lives..



-till here... *karen..*

Monday, June 06, 2005

.:.:.:.:...***first day of classes was fun.. but boring...***:.:.:.


it was 6:30 am..
and i realized..
my mom did not woke me up..


i thought..
i will be late for school... again..

nothing new..

i was late on our first day of classes..
well that's quite me..

always "TARDY"...

i hope i can change that attitude..

and do my best this year.. (well... uhh.. i hope soo..)

and excel on the things i really wanna work my best with..


so i'll just hope that i can really work hard not be subtle on stuffs..
that you know...

can interfere my plans...


anyways.. i need to go..

ciao!! wish me luck!! mwaaaahhh..

Sunday, June 05, 2005

*...lalalalala.. School is here again.... lalalalala....*

school is in the air..
my gosh..
i cant say nothing,,
i just wanna cry..

good luck to this new year ahead of me..
that's it.. ;)


Thursday, June 02, 2005

.:.:*I realized The Essence of the Word Me...*.:.:.:

Karen Mae S. San Andres

A big girl with a medium sized brain..
A simple, naïve, bad kind of girl..
Glasses and a man’s round eyes makes her heart melt..
Loving her seems to be hard.. but no, it’s not..

She’s just this average girl waiting for his prince to come riding down his horse..
Funny right??!
Better wake her up..
Coz she’s been dreaming way up long..
And maybe she cant get out of it..

15 years of average life..
Sometimes happy,, Sometimes lonely..
Most of the time crappy..

Uhhh… If life is too hard
Why do I want it to be fulfilled??!


Even if am not your pretty,, nice,, smart,, confident,, funny kind of kid..
Even though they’ll humiliate me and stuffs..

I know GOD is watching ‘em..
And I will let God guide them… (or punish them?!)

Sometimes I think..
Why do I try to fit those so called “perfect” qualities?!?

Maybe am seeking for social attention..
New friends,, acquaintances.. uhhh…

This time.. Am glad I have all that I need in my life right now..

Good Friends.. (the one that chose you coz you are you.. and not choose you coz your perfect or anything.. )
A loving family..
An average state of living…
And most of all…

The confidence that am seeking for.. for 15 long years..
Is somehow…
Some how getting near me..

So… Am hoping that before this journey ends..

I will find it and fulfill the destiny that God chose for this girl to take..

Monday, May 30, 2005

.:.:.:*We BeLoNg ToGeThEr*.:.:.

"We Belong Together"

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid
I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I couldn't have fathomed that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself

'Cause I didn't know you
'Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't
Hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, 'cause baby

When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
We belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me
'If you think you're lonely now'
Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life baby


[Repeat chorus]
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
We belong together

Thursday, May 26, 2005

uhh.. without ellaine but with mark.. :)

me and my fella's.. over ellaine's house... what can you say??!! we all look pretty right??!!! that's me on the red shirt.. starting on the left with the white shirt is jonadel.. with the blue shirt is dyan.. gray shirt is honey sweet.. red one *ME*.. black 3/4 sleeves is iLLa... white shirt is oyeen.. (illa's twin sis..) and ellaine with the white 3/4 sleeves shirt.. :D WE DO LOOK PRETTY RIGHT!!! I LOVE ALL THESE GALS!!! THEIR THE BESTEST AMONG ALL.. :D

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

dear bloggie (epidode II)...

grinning.. yeah.. they said i was..

err.. the story again..
before we all manage to eat..
the wedding planner decided to do something stupid..

ahhmmmpp.. because it was a program for like throwing the bouquet..
as usual.. the story is..

the one who will catch the bouquet will be the next to walk down the aisle.. i mean.. REALLY??!!

and i thought.. well okay.. its just a game.. nothing to loose..

but then.. they made the game like stupidly,,.. without realization i guess..

why again??

they made it look like trip to jerusalem or pass the balloon.. a very childish, naive stuff..
(err.. does it mean am a lady??! lol*)

well anyway.. just askin'.. isnt it obvious??

am the one who catched it.. yeah.. am so embarassed..

that's why am telling that the program is stupid.. err anyway..

besides that.. everything was fine.. and everything was happy..

and as well as i am.. the rest they say is history.. :D


Karen.. :)

Monday, May 16, 2005

Dear Bloggie..

I wrote this journal a few days after my bigger bro's wedding..

Write now it is 5:25 in the afternoon.. the sun was about to set.. everything is boring.. it felt like a dead day..

but may 14 was a different, very unique day..
because.. it will be the first time.. someone dear to my heart will be married.. and they it felt like God has made this day... just for the two of 'em.. my kuya andie and ate reggie..

I can still remember..

the days that my kuya and i were still small..
i was always having my tantrums..
he's always bothered coz my mom is preggy then and am soo naughty that even my mom cant with hold my kakulitan..

those memories are still fresh.. and the times that we will cook after my mom gave birth to my now 10 years old bro.. coz my dad was not here and is working abroad..

well anyway.. back to the wedding..

my kuya and i slept for like 12 am.. coz we waited for some deliveries to came to our house..

after then.. we slept..
and to my surprise..
my mom woke us up for like 5 am in the mornin'!!!!

but i guess the sacrifice is worth it.. :D

after everything that we did.. at 12 pm.. we took our make up..
we made sure our gowns are ready..
we became fairies..

and the wedding was good.. everything was a dream..
it felt like am on a fantasy..
i almost cried..

can you believe?? my mom said ive been grinning all the time.. hahahaha..

why not?? am soo soo happy for my kuya..

(part 2 later...)

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

how does it feel to be?

how does it feel?
to be different from me..

this is a one liner which hits me..
so i decided to take time and write this poem,,..

i am small and the world is big..
everything in here is fast moving..
but your still with her wandering..
and now your leaving me here,, CRYING...

simple, stylish, masculine is what you are..
you kicked my ass, broke my heart..
you did not even felt any remorse on what you've done..

this caused me to cry rivulets of tears..
i forgot all the happiness.. made everything blurr..
so now.. you felt guilty..
that's weird, maybe you're just empty..

am a loser, your always the winner..
am nothing, you are everything..
but now..
you're in love with me..
am sorry..

all i can say is..

"REVENGE IS SWEET, darlin'!!"

Friday, May 06, 2005


Am wishing I was with you..

I felt the world is too big for me..

Am wondering how does it feel to be..
Different from everyone else..

You we’re lying in her arms..


Tears run down my face..

Because it was suddenly..
I felt I love you..

some one asked me..

someone asked me..
what if you had the chance to say that thing..
that you've been keeping all your life..
" to the one you've always loved.."
" but never became yours.."

i said..

i dont to let him know anything..

i will just sacrifice my happiness..

so that i will not disrupt "him.."


Wednesday, May 04, 2005


when you saw what i saw.. and experienced what i did experienced.. what will you do? :'(



ive gone out of the house and..
my mom and i shopped and did our facials and stuffs..
so here's the story:

my mom decided to go to the dermatologist...
and yeah..

we did some facials..
it did hurt!!



i have some scars.. which i tried to get rid off..
i thought it'll be just simple procedures but..


it included 2 INJECTIONS!!! :'(

my gosh!!




until here..


Sunday, May 01, 2005

hey!! 'tis is me.. after i woke up and decided to take a picture of myself!! :p

hey!! this is me.. a month ago..

me.. this is me.. hahaha.. ugly aight??!! well.. accept the fact that the girl that you know (me) is not perfect.. am still human.. you know!!!!

but hey!! i did lose ten pounds!! but i think it's not that visible.. life is patience.. so i have to be a patient girl.. and continue this.. ;)

ciao! karen here..

on the left side is my daddy arman.. next is mommy nora.. then me on the center.. kuya and his fiance.. both on their red dresses.. :p

Monday, April 25, 2005

hhmmm.. nothing new.. i bought some new stuffs at the mall..

hey!! i bought new stuffs.. to satisfy my craving for new goodies..
ohh well..
i bought a new pair of shoes..
a pearl bracelet..
a new earring..
some pairs of shirts..

but still..
i dunno..
my kuya's wedding is getting near..

and it hurts me to let him go..

for he makes me feel am really his lil' sis..

and he gets all that i want..
he makes me feel that am not alone in this world..

well.. he's the nicest guy for me!!!

he's my kuya.. and no one could change that!!!

i hope all the best for him and his future wife..

may all of us be happy forever..

ciao! :)

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

hello.. am back..

"dont look no further.. baby am back,, yeah!!"

hi!! am not been able to tell stories with you guys this past days.. i've been busy in my work outs.. belly dancin', tae-bo, and some working out videos.. which makes me sweat..

it's really tiring.. pero.. am not losing a single ounce.. *cries*

well.. some people do notice that am losing "SOME" only some wait..
but i do not notice a single difference with mah wait before..
even harder because i do stop eating rice..
and stop eating meat..
i really miss eating 'em all!!
my gosh..

am so sad and depress right now..
because i miss them..
just kiddin'!

kidding aside..

i hope i can continue this stupid thing that am doing..
and eventually.. loose some weight.. and grow taller..

*wish me luck!!*
*keep your fingers crossed for me..*

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Lyrics of Same Ground by Kitchie Nadal..

My love,
Its been a long time since i cried
and left you out of the blue.
Its hard leaving you that way when
I never wanted to.

Self-denial is a game
Its strange i never would've
wanted if until there was you.

Because i have learned that love is beyond
what human can imagine,
the more it clears the more i have to let you go.

it is why i don't understand is why im feeling
so bad now when i know it was my idea.
i could've just denied the truth and
lied. but why am i the only one standing stranded
on the same ground?

My love,
Its been a long time since i cried
and left you out of the blue.
Its hard leaving you that way when
I never wanted to.

Self-denial is a game
Its strange i never would've
wanted if until there was you.

Because i have learned that love is a
word gets thrown a little bit too much.
the best excuse to fill the infinite abyss
i have never have to if all else fail

If all else fail, would you be brave to see right
through me?(2x)

Monday, April 11, 2005

would you believe?! am into something weird right now.. and it's addicting..

am into...


funny huh?? well aight..
i may look funny strutting my stuff through bellydancing..
but it's fun and exhausting..
it may look simple and easy but..
naaa ahh.. it's hard.. seriously..

for me it's also challenging..
it burns 300 calories per session..
hhmmm.. quite enough..

am hoping lang that it'll help my belly to shrink down..
maybe not that fast but..
in time..


Saturday, April 09, 2005



means that i accept you for the person you are...
And that i don't wish to change you into someone else..
It means that i do not expect perfection from y ou...
Just as you dont expect it from me...

means that i will love you and stand by evethrough the worst of times..
it means loving you when you're in bad mood or tired to do the things i want to do...
It means loving you when you're down..
Not just when you're fun to be with...

Means that i know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them...
Asking in return, that you do not judge them for mine..
It means that i care enough to fight for what we have..
And that i love enough not to let you go...
It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, waiting and needing you
constantly and hoping..
you feel the same way for me...



i cant believe that my favorite show did end.. waaahhh... and the ending was not that good.. am not that glad about it.. ahuhuhuhu..

Thursday, April 07, 2005


And now i concede
On the night of this fifteenth song
Of melancholy, of melancholy
And now i will admit in this fourth line
That i love you, that i love you.

I don’t care what they say
I don’t care what they do
‘cause tonight i’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

The clock on the tv says 8:39 pm
It’s the same, it’s the same
And in this next line
I’ll say it all over again
That i love you, that i love you.

I don’t care what they say
I don’t care what they do
‘cause tonight i’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go.

I’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go.

But still i see the tears from your eyes
Maybe i’m just not the one for you.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005


Somewhere in time..
I'm finding a thing that's been missing all my life..
But i'm not even sure what am i looking for...
Maybe it is somewhere in the stories, fairytale or folklores...

Somewhere in the past...
I found the thing that i have been looking for in my path...
When i found it, i was alone and unformed...
But then it came and made my life whole...

Somewhere.. this time...
I lost the thing, that thing that changed my life..
No one knows why.. the only thing that can answer is time..
But eventhough it's not mine anymore, it's okay, i'm fine...

Somewhere... maybe in the future..
The thing that came and did go will stumble..
And will come again to make my tears crumble...
I am just wishing you will come back again....
*******************my dear******************

Sunday, April 03, 2005

He was the Pope neither the Church nor the world expected. The surprises that characterized his twenty-six year pontificate began on the very night of John Paul II's election.

On October 16, 1978, the Catholic Church was in a state of spiritual shock. The fifteen-year papacy of Paul VI, whom many veteran churchmen considered the perfectly prepared pope, had concluded in division and exhaustion. The bright promise of the Second Vatican Council was a fading memory. Paul's successor, John Paul I, seemed on the verge of revitalizing the papacy when he died after a mere thirty-three days in office. To whom would the college of cardinals turn now? Few expected that they would turn to Karol Wojtyla, the 58-year-old archbishop of Kraków. But after the first day's balloting had revealed a deadlock between the two leading Italian candidates, the cardinals made the historic decision to look beyond Italy for a pope, and Wojtyla was quickly chosen. His appearance on the loggia of St. Peter's Basilica that night was the first surprise; many in the vast crowd had never heard of "Wojtyla," thinking the name Asian or African. But the surprises continued as John Paul II broke centuries of precedent and began his pontificate with an impromptu address in Italian, reassuring the worried Romans that, from this moment on, he, too, was a Roman. When he asked them to correct any mistakes he might make in "our Italian language," they cheered wildly.

Six days later, at his papal inauguration, the surprises continued. In his homily, John Paul II challenged the Church to regain its evangelical fervor and its nerve, particularly in defending the fundamental human right of religious freedom throughout the world. After the three-hour ceremony ended, he refused to retreat into the Vatican basilica but walked toward the vast throng in the Square, waving his papal crozier as if it were a great sword of the spirit. When a small boy burst through the security cordon to present him with flowers, fussy local clergy tried to shoo him away; John Paul II swept him up in an embrace. The crowds refused to leave until John Paul told them, "It's time for everyone to eat lunch, even the Pope!" John Paul II canonized more saints than any Pope in history and beatified hundreds of other servants of God--another surprise to some, and a practice that came under criticism. But the Pope, who thought there was sanctity all around us, believed that the "universal call to holiness" of which Vatican II had spoken was being answered on every continent and among people in every walk of life. God, he believed, is quite profligate in making saints.

That same conviction about the abundance of grace inspired John Paul's enthusiastic endorsement of a host of lay renewal movements in the Church. These movements--Focolare, Regnum Christi, the Neo-Catechumenal Way, Communion and Liberation, among many others--make some bishops and Church officials nervous; where did these movements of radical discipleship "fit" in the organization chart? John Paul II was content to leave that question to the future and encouraged every new movement that committed itself to "thinking with the Church."

He was a Pope of many surprises. French journalist André Frossard understood that when, shortly after John Paul's election, he wired his French newspaper, "This is not a Pope from Poland. This is a Pope from Galilee." And that, in retrospect, was the greatest surprise of all. This article came from: "http://www.beliefnet.com/story/163/story_16355_4.html" POPE... WE LOVE YOU!!!

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Bakit nga ba?

Bakit nga ba ako nilalamig?!
Kung ang panahon ay kasing init ng sisig?!
Ewan koh.. hindi rin ako sigurado..
Marahil ang isip ko ay kay gulo...

Maingay ang kapaligiran.. May kasiyahan...
Ayos lang, dapat masaya siya dahil kanyang kaarawan...
Namulat lang siguro ang mata ko dahil aking naisip...
"Ano bang tugtog yan! ang panget.. kulang sa lift!!

Siguro iniisip niyo na masama ang aking ugali..
Ikaw ba naman, bawiin ang tulog at antok ay mapawi..
Di ba masakit siya sa ulo at nakaka-irita..
Wala tuloy akong magawa kundi itong walang kwentang akda..

Naiinis ako ngayon, marahil di niya alam...
Malamang, ang lakas kasi ng tugtog at wala silang pakialam..
Masaya ako para sa kanya dahil minsan ka lang naman magdiriwang ng iyong ika-labing walong kaarawan...
Ngunit hinihiling ko lang naman, na ang tugtog sana'y paki hinaan..


(pag pasensyahan niyo na ako.. antok na talaga ako ehh.. hehe..)

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Once again...

I've talked to you once again..
But then you still left me with so much pain...
Maybe am a girl who is pathethic..
Cause whenever i talk to you, i always panic...

maybe am just here to guide and see you forever..

am just here.. your "ANGEL"..

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

We are friends... Just Friends...

We enjoy each others company
but for the most part, we avoid it.
We pretend there is nothing there.
We're just friends.
Every time we meet, it's awkward at first.
We check our guard and put up the walls.
We're just friends that's all.
We call each other on the phone,
and always have a good excuse for doing so.
Do friends need an excuse?
You remind me that "We must be careful",
"We can't go there", you say.
The rules have been set,
and we live by them.

We sit and talk for hours,
two sets of shining eyes interlocked
and neither turns away.
I hang on your every word.
Your simple presence in a room,
gives my life a purpose.
Add your voice and a smile,
and I melt away.
The thought of you touching me
makes my body scream out with yearning.
But we're just friends, right?
Why do I feel it's more?
Are we in self-inflicted denial?
Our past hurts have made us so afraid,
We'd rather be lonely than to take that chance again.

I wish I could tell you how I really feel inside.
That I'd be willing to take that chance
To be more than just your friend.
I know you sense this, as I do,
but it's easier to pretend.
Saying it would make it real
and you'd run away and hide from me.

So I'll try and keep the flood gates closed
and be content that you let me be,
Just your friend.

Love Is Eternal And Dreams Are Just Dreams..

I see your face in my sleep
and your figure appears to me in my waking hours,
like an angle mesmerized by your beauty
captivated by your elegance.

I've fallen hopelessly in love
with the only man I can never have once again.
Can the gods be so cruel as to show me the face of beauty
and not let me hold you in my arms.

To feel your breath against my face
would be my own personal heaven.
True love at first sight will last forever in my heart and my soul.
You are the only man
that has ever walked in my soul
and for that I love you...


(a lil' trivia... this song is an original from julia fordham then.. mymp (make your mama proud) revived it sometime last year but.. nina's version of this beautiful song is what i loved most..)

Who'd have thought
This is how the pieces fit?
You and I
Shouldn't even try making sense of it

I forgot
How we ever came this far
I believe we had reasons
but I don't know what they are
So blame it on my heart, oh

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways

Heaven knows
Love is just a chance we take
We make plans
But then love demands a leap of faith

So hold me close
And never let me go
'Cause even though we think we know
which way the river flows
That's not the way love goes, no

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways

Like the ticking of the clock
two hearts beat as one
But I'll never understand
the ways it's done

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Love moves in mysterious ways

i just love nina's version..

i just love nina's version of love moves in mysterious ways...

above is the lyrics... ENJOY!!!!!!

Sunday, March 27, 2005




E g g s Of all the symbols associated with Easter the egg, the symbol of fertility and new life, is the most identifiable. The customs and traditions of using eggs have been associated with Easter for centuries Originally Easter eggs were painted with bright colors to represent the sunlight of spring and were used in Easter-egg rolling contests or given as gifts. After they were colored and etched with various designs the eggs were exchanged by lovers and romantic admirers, much the same as valentines. In medieval time eggs were traditionally given at Easter to the servants. In Germany eggs were given to children along with other Easter gifts Different cultures have developed their own ways of decorating Easter eggs. Crimson eggs, to honor the blood of Christ, are exchanged in Greece. In parts of Germany and Austria green eggs are used on Maundy Thursday (Holy Thursday). Slavic peoples decorate their eggs in special patterns of gold and silver Austrian artists design patterns by fastening ferns and tiny plants around the eggs, which are then boiled. The plants are then removed revealing a striking white pattern. The Poles and Ukrainians decorate eggs with simple designs and colors. A number of eggs are made in the distinctive manner called pysanki (to design, to write) Pysanki eggs are a masterpiece of skill and workmanship. Melted beeswax is applied to the fresh white egg. It is then dipped in successive baths of dye. After each dip wax is painted over the area where the preceding color is to remain. Eventually a complex pattern of lines and colors emerges into a work of art In Germany and other countries eggs used for cooking where not broken, but the contents were removed by piercing the end of each egg with a needle and blowing the contents into a bowl. The hollow eggs were dyed and hung from shrubs and trees during the Easter Week. The Armenians would decorate hollow eggs with pictures of Christ, the Virgin Mary, and other religious designs

Easter Egg Games Eggs play an important part in Easter sports. The Romans celebrated the Easter season by running races on an oval track and giving eggs as prizes. Two traditional Easter egg games are the Easter Egg Hunt and the Easter Egg Roll On Easter morning the children of the house join in a search to locate the eggs that the Easter Bunny had hidden while they where asleep. The searching might continue though out the house with the older children helping the youngest. Sometimes prizes of candy are awaiting the child finding the most eggs Easter egg hunts can are also part of a community's celebration of holiday. The eggs are hidden in public places and the children of the community are invited to find the eggs The rules of an Easter Egg Roll are to see who can roll an egg the greatest distance or can make the roll without breaking it, usually down a grassy hillside or slope.

Saturday, March 26, 2005


ang diwa ko ngayo'y lumilipad sa kalawakan...
iniisip kung bakit ganito ang buhay na pumapasan?
perpekto ka at ako'y lusak lamang..
sana'y iyong mapansin ang pagibig na kailangan ng puwang ..

am now doing the right thing...

thinking of you is wrong..
but how will i take this, how long?
i know these things happened, it somehow recurred..
but it happened the wrong way and now.. am disturbed..

COFFEE,, is what i need.. eventhough i should have enough sleep... this is what am taking right now... hallucinating Frops from starbucks and figaro.. waaaaaaaahhhhhhh...

i just saw my ideal man.. again.. he made my heart stop for awhile.. but i realized.. that man is..

i realized that guy is only a dream.. a dream that will never see my future..


he is plain, perfect..

he has the looks, the talent, and the brain..

ohh man.. he simply stunning..

the way he dress, his fashion sense..

would make any girl feel the intense..

well anyway,, another thing is..

he has his beautiful girl already..

and it's impossible for me to have him..

coz if you will compare the qualities of the girl

with mine.. naaahhh.. you cant compare nothing..

am not pretty, am difident of myself..

nobody's proud of me..

am just nothing..

while his girl..

was just everything..

but still..

am praying that one day..

i will find a man..

like him..

--Karen Mae :)

Thursday, March 24, 2005

am going back to my anime days...

heck!! am feeling like am going back to my childhood days again because of marmalade boy... i simply love yuu and miki.. (as well as i hate arimi and ginta..)

why do i love this anime??

it's because maybe.. whenever i will see a feel good love story show.. i will fall in love with it..

and that's what happened..

and now..

eventhough i sometimes sleep late..

i will alarm my body clock..

so by 8:30 am.. i will be awake and watch marmalade boy..

but the alarm stops at 9:00 am..

and i will go back to sleep..


--Karen Mae :)

memories of yuu... let's just pretend.. i am mikii... hahahha..

i love yuu and miki soo much!!!!!!
am soooo sleepy........

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

i just wish.. yuu is for real... and i am miki..


Bakit kaya ang ibang tao ay masaya?!
Samantalang ang iba ay hindi man lamang maging maligaya?!
Bakit ang ibang tao ay kaya kang mapasaya?!
Ngunit mapatawa ka ay di ko magawa...

Kailan kaya mabubuhay muli ito?
Ang pagmamahalang iniukit sa aking puso..
Maaring hindi na mangyari ang aking pinapangarap...
Siguro hahayaan ko nalang itong lumipad sa alapaap...

Sa pagkakataong ito, sana'y aking masabi...
Sa pamamagitan ng aking mga nanginginiig na labi...
Na "mahal kita!"sa ikalawang pagkakataon...
at hinihiling na sana ito na ang tamang panahon...

Di ko na inaasahan na ikaw ay magbalik pa sa aking bisig...
Dahil para sa akin, sarado na ang iyong puso at matang may piring...
Ang hinihiling ko lang naman na sana ay maulit...
Ang mga ngiting sa mukha mo'y aking naiukit...


Ngayong Mahal na araw...
May isang mahalagang tao na sa ati'y dumadalaw...
Siya ay si Hesus, ang ating tagapagligtas...
Ang pagmamahal niya sa atin, buhay niya ang katumbas...

Maraming Kahulugan, Sa puso niya'y nagpapabigat...
Kaya isipin natin sakripisyo niya ba ay sapat?
Binuhay niya ikaw, ako, tayong lahat...
Pati ba naman sarili nating krus, siya pa ang bubuhat??

Kapatid, mahal tayo ni hesus na ating Diyos...
Kaya pinabayaan niya na ang sarili niya'y mapako sa krus...
Sana ngayong kuaresma tayo'y magnilay-nilay...
Sa kabutihang dala niya sana tayo'y mag-alay...

Matutong magdasal, Magsakripisyo, at Magtiis...
Gaano man kahirap o kasarap, kakapal o kanipis...
Mag Pasalamat tayong lahat sa dakila nating tagapagligtas...
At naway sa kabilang buhay, magkita-kita tayo sa kamay niya sa itaas...

(Karen Mae :)

Think about it... He died for you and me... Now you're ignoring him???!!

Jesus christ.. our saviour... crucified... :(

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

my head is aching... and it's pain is like forever...

ouch... it's been 2 days since my head is aching to death..
i think i need to see my optometrist.. (if i am right..)
maybe a pair of glasses is what i need..

this feeling is what i felt when i used reading glasses..
but those glasses were gone..
they're lost..


am glad i updated these photos...

without mine...


Karen Mae :)

first eb pictures... it was really nice to meet 'em!! :)

my barkada's in my school.. nsdaps.. woaaahhh... my makulet barkadas.. "PRODIKTS FOREVER!!!!!"

kuya eirik again... haha.. it does not seem that i am obsessed with him right??

mr. dreamboy holding a snake at avilon zoo...