Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Once again...

I've talked to you once again..
But then you still left me with so much pain...
Maybe am a girl who is pathethic..
Cause whenever i talk to you, i always panic...

maybe am just here to guide and see you forever..

am just here.. your "ANGEL"..

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

We are friends... Just Friends...

We enjoy each others company
but for the most part, we avoid it.
We pretend there is nothing there.
We're just friends.
Every time we meet, it's awkward at first.
We check our guard and put up the walls.
We're just friends that's all.
We call each other on the phone,
and always have a good excuse for doing so.
Do friends need an excuse?
You remind me that "We must be careful",
"We can't go there", you say.
The rules have been set,
and we live by them.

We sit and talk for hours,
two sets of shining eyes interlocked
and neither turns away.
I hang on your every word.
Your simple presence in a room,
gives my life a purpose.
Add your voice and a smile,
and I melt away.
The thought of you touching me
makes my body scream out with yearning.
But we're just friends, right?
Why do I feel it's more?
Are we in self-inflicted denial?
Our past hurts have made us so afraid,
We'd rather be lonely than to take that chance again.

I wish I could tell you how I really feel inside.
That I'd be willing to take that chance
To be more than just your friend.
I know you sense this, as I do,
but it's easier to pretend.
Saying it would make it real
and you'd run away and hide from me.

So I'll try and keep the flood gates closed
and be content that you let me be,
Just your friend.

Love Is Eternal And Dreams Are Just Dreams..

I see your face in my sleep
and your figure appears to me in my waking hours,
like an angle mesmerized by your beauty
captivated by your elegance.

I've fallen hopelessly in love
with the only man I can never have once again.
Can the gods be so cruel as to show me the face of beauty
and not let me hold you in my arms.

To feel your breath against my face
would be my own personal heaven.
True love at first sight will last forever in my heart and my soul.
You are the only man
that has ever walked in my soul
and for that I love you...


(a lil' trivia... this song is an original from julia fordham then.. mymp (make your mama proud) revived it sometime last year but.. nina's version of this beautiful song is what i loved most..)

Who'd have thought
This is how the pieces fit?
You and I
Shouldn't even try making sense of it

I forgot
How we ever came this far
I believe we had reasons
but I don't know what they are
So blame it on my heart, oh

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways

Heaven knows
Love is just a chance we take
We make plans
But then love demands a leap of faith

So hold me close
And never let me go
'Cause even though we think we know
which way the river flows
That's not the way love goes, no

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways

Like the ticking of the clock
two hearts beat as one
But I'll never understand
the ways it's done

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Love moves in mysterious ways

i just love nina's version..

i just love nina's version of love moves in mysterious ways...

above is the lyrics... ENJOY!!!!!!

Sunday, March 27, 2005




E g g s Of all the symbols associated with Easter the egg, the symbol of fertility and new life, is the most identifiable. The customs and traditions of using eggs have been associated with Easter for centuries Originally Easter eggs were painted with bright colors to represent the sunlight of spring and were used in Easter-egg rolling contests or given as gifts. After they were colored and etched with various designs the eggs were exchanged by lovers and romantic admirers, much the same as valentines. In medieval time eggs were traditionally given at Easter to the servants. In Germany eggs were given to children along with other Easter gifts Different cultures have developed their own ways of decorating Easter eggs. Crimson eggs, to honor the blood of Christ, are exchanged in Greece. In parts of Germany and Austria green eggs are used on Maundy Thursday (Holy Thursday). Slavic peoples decorate their eggs in special patterns of gold and silver Austrian artists design patterns by fastening ferns and tiny plants around the eggs, which are then boiled. The plants are then removed revealing a striking white pattern. The Poles and Ukrainians decorate eggs with simple designs and colors. A number of eggs are made in the distinctive manner called pysanki (to design, to write) Pysanki eggs are a masterpiece of skill and workmanship. Melted beeswax is applied to the fresh white egg. It is then dipped in successive baths of dye. After each dip wax is painted over the area where the preceding color is to remain. Eventually a complex pattern of lines and colors emerges into a work of art In Germany and other countries eggs used for cooking where not broken, but the contents were removed by piercing the end of each egg with a needle and blowing the contents into a bowl. The hollow eggs were dyed and hung from shrubs and trees during the Easter Week. The Armenians would decorate hollow eggs with pictures of Christ, the Virgin Mary, and other religious designs

Easter Egg Games Eggs play an important part in Easter sports. The Romans celebrated the Easter season by running races on an oval track and giving eggs as prizes. Two traditional Easter egg games are the Easter Egg Hunt and the Easter Egg Roll On Easter morning the children of the house join in a search to locate the eggs that the Easter Bunny had hidden while they where asleep. The searching might continue though out the house with the older children helping the youngest. Sometimes prizes of candy are awaiting the child finding the most eggs Easter egg hunts can are also part of a community's celebration of holiday. The eggs are hidden in public places and the children of the community are invited to find the eggs The rules of an Easter Egg Roll are to see who can roll an egg the greatest distance or can make the roll without breaking it, usually down a grassy hillside or slope.

Saturday, March 26, 2005


ang diwa ko ngayo'y lumilipad sa kalawakan...
iniisip kung bakit ganito ang buhay na pumapasan?
perpekto ka at ako'y lusak lamang..
sana'y iyong mapansin ang pagibig na kailangan ng puwang ..

am now doing the right thing...

thinking of you is wrong..
but how will i take this, how long?
i know these things happened, it somehow recurred..
but it happened the wrong way and now.. am disturbed..

COFFEE,, is what i need.. eventhough i should have enough sleep... this is what am taking right now... hallucinating Frops from starbucks and figaro.. waaaaaaaahhhhhhh...

i just saw my ideal man.. again.. he made my heart stop for awhile.. but i realized.. that man is..

i realized that guy is only a dream.. a dream that will never see my future..


he is plain, perfect..

he has the looks, the talent, and the brain..

ohh man.. he simply stunning..

the way he dress, his fashion sense..

would make any girl feel the intense..

well anyway,, another thing is..

he has his beautiful girl already..

and it's impossible for me to have him..

coz if you will compare the qualities of the girl

with mine.. naaahhh.. you cant compare nothing..

am not pretty, am difident of myself..

nobody's proud of me..

am just nothing..

while his girl..

was just everything..

but still..

am praying that one day..

i will find a man..

like him..

--Karen Mae :)

Thursday, March 24, 2005

am going back to my anime days...

heck!! am feeling like am going back to my childhood days again because of marmalade boy... i simply love yuu and miki.. (as well as i hate arimi and ginta..)

why do i love this anime??

it's because maybe.. whenever i will see a feel good love story show.. i will fall in love with it..

and that's what happened..

and now..

eventhough i sometimes sleep late..

i will alarm my body clock..

so by 8:30 am.. i will be awake and watch marmalade boy..

but the alarm stops at 9:00 am..

and i will go back to sleep..


--Karen Mae :)

memories of yuu... let's just pretend.. i am mikii... hahahha..

i love yuu and miki soo much!!!!!!
am soooo sleepy........

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

i just wish.. yuu is for real... and i am miki..


Bakit kaya ang ibang tao ay masaya?!
Samantalang ang iba ay hindi man lamang maging maligaya?!
Bakit ang ibang tao ay kaya kang mapasaya?!
Ngunit mapatawa ka ay di ko magawa...

Kailan kaya mabubuhay muli ito?
Ang pagmamahalang iniukit sa aking puso..
Maaring hindi na mangyari ang aking pinapangarap...
Siguro hahayaan ko nalang itong lumipad sa alapaap...

Sa pagkakataong ito, sana'y aking masabi...
Sa pamamagitan ng aking mga nanginginiig na labi...
Na "mahal kita!"sa ikalawang pagkakataon...
at hinihiling na sana ito na ang tamang panahon...

Di ko na inaasahan na ikaw ay magbalik pa sa aking bisig...
Dahil para sa akin, sarado na ang iyong puso at matang may piring...
Ang hinihiling ko lang naman na sana ay maulit...
Ang mga ngiting sa mukha mo'y aking naiukit...


Ngayong Mahal na araw...
May isang mahalagang tao na sa ati'y dumadalaw...
Siya ay si Hesus, ang ating tagapagligtas...
Ang pagmamahal niya sa atin, buhay niya ang katumbas...

Maraming Kahulugan, Sa puso niya'y nagpapabigat...
Kaya isipin natin sakripisyo niya ba ay sapat?
Binuhay niya ikaw, ako, tayong lahat...
Pati ba naman sarili nating krus, siya pa ang bubuhat??

Kapatid, mahal tayo ni hesus na ating Diyos...
Kaya pinabayaan niya na ang sarili niya'y mapako sa krus...
Sana ngayong kuaresma tayo'y magnilay-nilay...
Sa kabutihang dala niya sana tayo'y mag-alay...

Matutong magdasal, Magsakripisyo, at Magtiis...
Gaano man kahirap o kasarap, kakapal o kanipis...
Mag Pasalamat tayong lahat sa dakila nating tagapagligtas...
At naway sa kabilang buhay, magkita-kita tayo sa kamay niya sa itaas...

(Karen Mae :)

Think about it... He died for you and me... Now you're ignoring him???!!

Jesus christ.. our saviour... crucified... :(

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

my head is aching... and it's pain is like forever...

ouch... it's been 2 days since my head is aching to death..
i think i need to see my optometrist.. (if i am right..)
maybe a pair of glasses is what i need..

this feeling is what i felt when i used reading glasses..
but those glasses were gone..
they're lost..


am glad i updated these photos...

without mine...


Karen Mae :)

first eb pictures... it was really nice to meet 'em!! :)

my barkada's in my school.. nsdaps.. woaaahhh... my makulet barkadas.. "PRODIKTS FOREVER!!!!!"

kuya eirik again... haha.. it does not seem that i am obsessed with him right??

mr. dreamboy holding a snake at avilon zoo...

i had nothing to do this day but,,,

i have nothing to do but to upload this cute pictures... enjoy viewing them!!!

Karen Mae :)


Everything is peaceful,, everyone was calm...
In this paradise where everyone comes...
I hear the waves in the sea, the touch of the sand...
The trees and birds are dancing like a band...

Now before i go to sleep here...
I want the wind to touch my fear...
The fear to let everyone know...
I am not coming back even if they told me "GO!"

I am now with my creator and i am happy...
That He opened his door for someone like me...

(i made this because i am not feeling that well...)

Karen Mae :(

Monday, March 21, 2005

****BeFoRe YoU CaMe......****

My Life before was worthless...
Until you came and gave me your caress...
I am always left empty...
But when you came i was never lonely...

Superficial Beliefs once surrounded me...
But you came and gave me the right key...
The Key to have this happiness am feeling right now...
Happiness that keeps me smiling and not letting me frown...

Just say you'll keep me in your mind...
So that happy memories with me you'll find...
Wishing this moment can last forever...
So that I can feel loved, whenever...

Your angelic face is what I'll always trace...
For no one will or can ever erase...
THe i love i felt from you was simply heavenly...
And i want to thank God forgiving someone like you to me...

(di pah po ako inspired niyan.. wala akong papa.. ahehehe..)

Karen Mae :p

i remembered my dream.. the dream which made me cry three years ago,,,

i remember my dream..

it was our summer vacation and i had this dream which was embarked in my soul..

i was exactly coming out of my body..

then a close friend suddenly came and invited me to go to his newly born cousin.. the little boy's name is piolo.. i told the boy "hi" and "bye"..

then my friend suddenly disappeared..

the next scene was i am in this totally white room.. a huge huge door suddenly came before my eyes and it suddenly opened and a big hand came out of the door and said..

"pasok na, anak"

i can still remember his angelic deep voice.. i came in and saw a beautiful garden.. with white complexioned childrens in there.. suddenly i came back to my own mind ang thought..

"where am i?"

then.. i suddenly came out of my dream.. cried and prayed.. told the lord am not ready yet,, am not ready to crossover and i have so many things to do.. god was good and until now am still alive..

because of that experience..


Sunday, March 20, 2005

am kinda worthless..

i just wanna say am feeling kinda crap right now...
i dunno why.. i feel lonely..
i feel upset.. i feel weightless..
i feel.. i feel..

naaahhh.. my feeling is not worth anyone's attetion so better yet..

don't mind me..

am just crazy..


Why is my heart beating?!
Is it just me?!
Or is it the wind that's blowing?!

Maybe It's because you're passing...
If not my day would rather be boring...

Dreaming,, that's what i've been doing...
While i am wide awake thinking...

Imagining what if?.. you and me were together..
Maybe that moment is what i'll treasure forever...

I know am a brat,, a girl who wants everything...
But if it's your worth... i can stand without nothing...

Someone said.. "That's the challenge of loving..."
"Fighting and not caring even if you are losing.."

But this admiration that i am feeling..
Is the attention "you are ignoring.."

--Karen :)

Sunday, March 13, 2005

""""i aM rEaLLy ReaLLy gLaD.. iT's OuR VaCaTiOn!"""


am glad it's already our vacation..
but am going back to school for my "power memory" session..
it'll be held this tuesday..

i will not be able to see my friends for some weeks but..
we will have our "outing" this march 31..
our other friends' birthday..

the exams earlier we're quite hard..

well it's kinda good,, ive done my part..
i did my best with all of the exams..
we'll just see..

what is my hardwork's worth...

i'll keep this short..



Friday, March 11, 2005

heck of a day... exams on my way..

god.. it was hard..

i am an hour late for our exams..
and the first test is..



it was darn 2 hours of braintwisting..
storm kicking formulas...

and poooff..

i can faint any minute.. haha..

the next one would be filipino..

it was quite hard.. it was about noli me tangere..

i thought we will be able to eat our lunch and have break..

but one of my stupid classmates whislted vulgarly..

our rabbit teacher went mad and she did not let us take our lunch..


then we had our test in religion...

the class is dismissed..

ive done my cheating..

my brain started rolling and looking for some luscious food...

me and dyan finally realized that there is some resto outside our school..

we ate at chowking..

and until now..

my stomach is full,...

wish me luck for tomorrow!!!


Thursday, March 10, 2005

this day is a bit of both emotions.. happiness and loneliness..

it was the last day of our classes..
i thought i will be a bit happy but not purely sad..
but sudden sea of emotions came when my fave teacher in history sunk in..

he is smiling mostly.. but..
when he said those words which made me realize something..
i was not sure why tears feel in my small eyes..
but it did hurt me.. for..

it'll be the last time i will see mr. pedreña..
and that made me.. cry..

because he gave me grades i do not deserve..
but still those grades gave me esteem..

eventhough his subject was the hardest (if not..)

still.. i did my best and he appreciates my effort..

and because of that sir pedreña..


you made my highschool life complete..

i hope we will be able to reminisce memories together..

i did not mean anything hah..

i just do love you for you are so kind and gentle..

it was my lil' brother's b-day..

it was quite fun,, happy..

it'll be our finals tomorrow!!

waaaahhhh!!! chemistry,, filipino,, and religion!!!

wish me luck guys!!