Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Leaving: verb


1. to go out of or away from you, F.U.C.K you!
2. to depart from permanently *i wish I DAMN COULD!*
3. to stop; cease; give up *which i can't still do until this moment, but..*


—Synonyms 1, 2. abandon, forsake, desert; relinquish. 9. forbear, renounce. 10. ignore, forget. 11. bequeath, will; devise, transmit.


it was like a forsaken truth, to know that your eyes

could never look deeply into mine.

it relinquished every hope that my

fragile soul could ever endure.



today, is the day your mother gave birth to a
child who became the resaon i am hurting so

bad right now.



it was a factual- lucid dream to have experience a

fictional relationship with your hugs and kisses.

too bad.



your translucent ability to make every girl melt

suddenly clicked in front of me.



obscurity suddenly kills this dim madness.


you suddenly fell out of love.


during those times that i felt deeply crushed in your being.


i suddenly felt weak, restless, numb.


i instantly felt the need to have you back.


at once, a capricious notion that you


will be gone directly enlightens me.


and i still felt deprived of what you really meant
with those times you told me "YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME"


fuck you.
why do you always have to screw everything up?

can you just look on what fancy stupid words you've left me?

in a whim, you bequeath everything we've shared.



but i still have no choice.

but to LEAVE everything behind.

LEAVE everything that's unleft.

LEAVE everything that's undone.

LEAVE the idea of YOU AND ME or ME AND YOU.





what is left is.

AGONY inside my very soul.

and your

REKINDLING SMILE that resurfaces

each tear that falls down from this eyes.





and underneath it all.

I STILL LOVE YOU.



BUT DO YOU STILL LOVE ME?

DID YOU EVER LOVE ME?

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

what.the.fuck.kala.ko.irreg.ako.puta.

ano ba yan. makikita ko na naman mga kaklase ko
puñeta.ano bang buhay to?
pagod na ako sa araw na to.

the hell i care, i dont wanna see them.

Monday, October 16, 2006

*GOT MY CLASSCARD AND HECK!! PASADO!! WEELL...*

luck if you may call it..
knowldege? naahhh...
welll... ok na yung 2.68 noH!
2.20 lang naman cutoff!
at pumasa ako sa PESTENG MATH-100 & ENGLISH-100!

well..

mas masarap ang feeling ng pumasa,
buti nalang..
worth it yung 20 thou ni ina para sa diamond peel..

..yey!! happi mode..

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

*imago's noon concert was a blast.. but heck.. stupid mates from mc made me mad..*

gawd, that show started at 9! wooah..
ang early no?
haha.. i didnt got there that hour i arrived at 10 am..
anyway, to cut the story short, imago was there na but kuya tim is late..
so, they were waiting for him at mc's caf..
and we took advantage to get some photos of us with them..
(take note: raimund marasigan was there too..)
hahaha.. yeah! zach took the pic.. :D

anyway.. i was soo fucking mad to some of my classmates at mc!
their like there to make me mad..
we'll see.. im'a talk to one of 'em..


tl.. <3 karen..

Saturday, September 02, 2006

*' ayy nako.. ewan ko ba.. '*

*' ayy nako.. ewan ko ba.. insecurity issues.. '*

bakit nga ba puro rant ako about life?
di ko din alam eh.,..
siguro dahil sa insecurity issues ko..
since i was a kid kasi, i had this stuff na..
soo, insecurity was just a good stuff for me..
coz i am not the time na, namimintas ng imperfections..
for i know where i stand in this world..
i may not have the prettiest face and sexiest body in this side of the universe..

but i am secure about this thing..
i am not one of those social climbers either a fucking pretender..
i am who i am born with..
i know what i want..
i do what i want..
if you dont like what i appear..
go ahead.. DIE!

and just a thought..
as i said, i am not perfect, i have alot of imperfections all over..
but would you believe? (even i cant!)
some people hate me for who i am..
they hate how i show what i have..

parang, pucha, ang gaganda nio na nga..
ang chaka ko na nga tapos insecure pa kayo saken?
tokwa kau!
lmao, but this talkshit is true..

shet, ang swerte ko naman ang malas mo naman!!
hahaha.. KISS MY ASS!

Thursday, August 31, 2006

*' ..na eemo ako!! shet! taina mga tao sa pinas..'*


alam niyo..
nabubuysit na ko sa mga tao dito sa pinas..
tangina ehh..
kainis..
bakit ba lahat tayo mahilig sa magandang bagay?

sino nga ba may gusto ng pangit di ba?
kahit pangit mukha mo, gusto mong pagandahin para..

para ano??
tangina, makibagay?
makibagay?
such a fucking word..

di ako makapaniwala na nakagawa ako ng straight filipino words sa blog ko..
(sa last line lang pumalya..)


inilalabas ko ang sama ng loob ko..
napakaleche talaga ng mundo..

pucha, gusto lahat maganda, magara..
sa itsura, sa pananamit, sa gamit, sa istilo ng pananalita..

screw it!
parang di naman kayong lahat dumaan sa pagiging pangit
o bakekang stage.. wag naman bakekang, ugly duckling stage naman..

o sige..
swerte siguro ang mga taong ipinanganak na maganda at lumaking ganun parin..

isa ako..
isa ako sa mga hindi ganun..

pakialam mo ba?
e yun ang kapalaran ko e..
at kapalaran ng iba..

tangina, lagi nalang lumabas ko ang salitang ito sa bibig ko..
i mean, this world sucks, if you are in the same
situation like what i am in right now..

insecurities belies inside this fucking words coming out off my mind..
ikaw ba naman pumasok sa puñetang kolehiyo na puro trying hard na kolehiyala..

puro make up, puro pagpapaganda, puro kaartehan..
una kaya ko pa e..

ngaun, parang sasabog na ko..

siguro pag nabasa to ng mga nakatataas na tao sa iskwela ko,
baka palayasin ako..

i am now making a public apology for what i have said..

siguro sasabihin nila saken..
taga *toot* ka pa naman..
isa ka pa sa mga writers..

tapos..

leche! paki ko.. mamatay na kung mamatay..

Saturday, August 26, 2006

nothing to do today.. and still my back hurts terribly..

*'*...TWADDLEST DAY EVER...*'*


i just read my diary for like 6 years..
my gosh.. memories as soo damn FUNNY!!
i remember the days where in i was so heck of inlove with these 3 stupid guys..
romil cahatol.paulo tuazon.jover paras.

MY GOODNESS!!! WHY HAVE I LIKED THEM??
CHILDHOOD REALLY INSPIRED ME TO HAVE BAD TASTE..

hahahaha...... i was almost crying due to the laughs i made!! :D

but still.. my back hurts terribly..
i dunno what stupid idea this backpain has but my goodness..
IT DID GOT MY ENERGY..


and the cheering stuff my blockmates in mc are preparing for..

i havent gone to any practices, due to this..
MAYBE THEIR ANNOYED OF ME RIGHT NOW..
BUT I DONT REALLY CARE..
LETS JUST SAY, I DONT REALLY CARE HOW THIS YEAR GOES..
I WANT TO STOP SCHOOLING AND THINK FOR AWHILE..

I REALLY WANTED TO GO TO CCA..
I DO..

BUT THEY DONT..
THEY COULD PAY FOR THE SHIT BUT THEY DONT CARE FOR THE STUFF..


I AM DESPERATELY LOOKING FOR WAYS ON HOW TO KICK MY BUTT OFF..

COULD YOU?

Friday, August 18, 2006

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Thursday, July 13, 2006

*...smirnoff.. san miguel strong ice... smirnoff.. ice... tipsy..*


i drank some bottles.. and yeah.. am tipsy at the moment..
sleeping in a jeep felt like sleeping for 10 years..
it felt damn good...


drinking has been a habit.. am not an alcoholic but i am a drinker..
i drink to forget past pains.. i drink when i am feeling down..

i drink when i admit it myself that i am a looser..

bitch..


speaking of this.. those bitches are my blockmates..
i hate them..
they look like hippopotamus and a witch.,,, wahahaha,,..

in case they are not aware,, i think i also made fun of them..
not only that,, hahahaha.. they should've read this,,,


for you too.. i am not a hater,, i am a DAMN HATER..
you made a reason for me to hate you..

aww.. sucker.. loosers.. a hippo and a witch for best friends..

congrats!! hahaha..

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

*'nervewracking interview for chi-rho yesterday....*


it was my first time..
everything was new..
my gosh.. i think i looked stupid..
i was like running out of words..

ahuhuhuhu... i dunno..

just a week ago, i made a column for chi rho,
it's like the audition for the 'hottest' publication in mc..

i edited that stuff alot,, and i dunno, am doubting if it is good enough
for them..


their all nice (the people whom interviewed me..)
am just quite sad on how i left a mark on them..

am playing stupid on words, you think am worth it?

i dunno, i am uncertain.. there are so many of them who applies for the same position..
(reviews editor)
and i, i still dunno, i am one of those..

i prayed for this, i told God, if its not for me, so may be it..

i will still aim high and reach my goals, uncertain of what may happen, but sure enough, i will fall humbled and experienced...



*TAKE CARE ALL!! *

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

*' new: I POD NANO.. but heck.. *

*' new: I POD NANO.. but heck.. *


i left the charger at my lola's house,, and i will be going to mc tomorrow, without my new ipod,, i cant! and the bad stuff is my phone is *unusable* right now, i dunno,, was it just mishap or plain bad luck?


hell yeah..

ciao!

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

*'wheeww... looks like i will be watching da vinci's code tomorrow night.. '*

*'wheeww... looks like i will be watching da vinci's code tomorrow night.. '*

i have a date with ate redge tomorrow..
i hope it'll be a helluva movie!

hotness..

much <3 karen..

Monday, May 22, 2006

*' my rant about life.. '*

life has been DAMN unfair since the heck discrimination was born..
i dunno,, as i always say,, LIFE SUCKS BIG TIME..

and yeah,, it still sucks at this moment..
it'll never change..

but there's this weird side of me that says i need to chage ahullot of stuffs in my world..

it tells me i should discover more stuffs, unravel paranormal things in my side of world..

i mean, i need to know something about MY PAST LIFE..

that calls for some regression therapy..

am'a do it some other time but for now..

*STARE AT THE LOVELY MOON.. *

Monday, May 08, 2006


*'why do we look good together?! i dunno, chemistry fits perfectly.. '*
i RULE!

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Wednesday, April 26, 2006


*' camille my makulet cousin who's in canada right now.. baby ruth, and me.. '*

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

*' i did this survey... about you... '*

*' i did this survey... about you... '*


" i asked my friends.. "

" why do people that are close to you ignores you in times of troubles.. ?"

they said.. "maybe because it's easier to tell your secrets to people that are not close to you or strangers,, they are afraid of judgment.. or maybe they just dont trust you at all.."

"siguro di ka niya tinuturing na kaibigan o wala lang talaga siyang tiwala sayo.. "

THIS COMMENT IS WHAT I THINK FITS BEST..

" you know what sometimes it's easier to tell ur secrets to a complete stranger or someone not close to you,,people fear being judged,, you may not agree, but more often, than not.. we are afraid that our so called friends may see us differently if we reveal are secrets to them.. b it positive or negative.. Yes, you may call it PRIDE i guess.. TOO PROUD OR TOO AFRAID.. it's not that a friend doesnt trust.. there are just things she rather not tell TO PROTECT THE FRIENDSHIP, i guess..
II HURTS BUT THAT'S HOW LIFE IS.. "

*'thanks for the friendship.. now let me end this stupid thing.. '*

*'thanks for the friendship.. now let me end this stupid thing.. '*



i hate it when people forget everything about their friends..

once they found a new stuff...

i mean.. DAMN IT!

life sucks and you dont have to fall for suckers..

uuhhh... ignore me..

WHATEVER...

Sunday, April 09, 2006


*' aia (my idol to death!/vocalist of imago) and me.... '*
Karen Rocks!

*' mYrEne (bassist/ my idol) of ImaGo aNd mE... '*
Karen Rocks!

*' ZaCh (the drummer) oF iMaGo and mE.. '*
Karen Rocks!

*' TiM oF iMaGo & mE '*
Karen Rocks!

*' merged pic of aia, myrene, and me...am sooo bronzed.. '*
Karen Rocks!

*' KAME NAMAN NI DYAN!! PRETTY! '*
Karen Rocks!

*' time to pose nhad!! say CHEESE! WITH ME OF COURSE! '*
Karen Rocks!

*' FABULOUS LADS! ROLF, MARK, HONEY, NHAD, PAUL, DYAN, ELLAINE AND THE PRETTY ME.. (hahaha...) '*
Karen Rocks!

*' PROM KING AND QUEENS... HONEY, NHAD, MARK, ME, DYAN, AND ELLAINE.. '*
Karen Rocks!

*' SOLO PIC OF THE BLUE/PURPLE FAIRY..'*
Karen Rocks!

*'dyan, mark, and me... VIDEOFEST 2006... '*
Karen Rocks!

Tuesday, March 07, 2006


PROMDIKTS! Princess, Rolf, Mark, Oyin, Dyan, iLLa, Karen *me*, Nhad, Honey! **""COMPLETE,... ""**
Karen Rocks!

Friday, February 24, 2006


*' honey and me.. with the icing.. '*
Karen Rocks!

*' illa and me.. hahaha,, gross icing,,.. '*
Karen Rocks!

*' nice... dyan, illa, honey, and me.. with carlo.. '*
Karen Rocks!

Sunday, February 19, 2006

*got to see a fortune teller..*

and yeah.. ellaine and me did..
but that's not just the fun that happened
this past 2 days..

ill tell you about a story..

last friday,, ellaine, nhad, and me..
we decided to cut classes..
not go to school..
to finish some stupid projects..

uhh soo.. they seek from some help
through illa and oyeen, but they have their
classes so ellaine and nhad got this idea..

'that we should go and see a movie..'
and of course am ready for that!!
hhmmm... they've decided to go to
blue wave mall at marquinton..
while i was at home taking a bath,
theyve just called me to tell me
to go there..

and the rest was fun stories..

we get to see this movie..
'CLOSE TO YOU'
i never liked anyone in the movie,,
but i did LOVED the STORY!

i think those stories could happen to us,
real people..
like, i will always love you..
flows and cons are the same, but the story
is different.. they differ,, in their own ways..

but BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN IS IN THE DIFFERENT SIDE!
and i will tackle about that on my next post,..

anyway,,
that story happened last friday..

and here's what happened to me and ellaine
yesterday,,
we got to recto to buy some projects,,
it's a secret.. hahaha..

and while riding the lrt, we both decided to
take a talk to a manghuhula or fortune teller that is..

it was very fun.. haha,, i got the chance to talk to her first..
first thing she said was "lagi ka bang naawa sa sarili mo?"
and in the back of my head, i was like "shocks! how did she knew?"
i was smiling back at her, she said "wag ganun, wag mong i
bi-bring down ang sarili mo.."
so i thought, "ohh okay, anyone can guess that right?"

here what shocked me.. "malas naman ng lablayp mo, una bigo, pangalawa, bigo, pangatlo, bigo pa rin.."
and i thought, "hahahaha, this is getting surreal nah ah!"

last thing,, "di dito ang swerte mo, di ka dito magkakaasawa, sa abroad.."
"foreigner ang mapapangasawa mo.. and di ka na mahihirapan, mayaman na siya ehh.."

i was like: "oh my! surreal na talaga! hahaha, i cant believe this anymore!"

pero i think.. a part of me believes her.. know why?
she said this: "wag kang manunumpa, kasi malakas kang manumpa,, you have this psychic ability, di mo lang alam kung pano i control.. "

and probably she has a point on that..


-sleepy! karen :D

Saturday, February 11, 2006


is curly hair a trend now a days? cause i seem to like it.. lol.. :D
karen rocks!

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Mayroong isang dilag, nagmamahal ng tapat.
Kasintaha’y pilyo, ginagawa ang hindi dapat.
Makita lang ng babae ang sulyap nitong Ginoo,
Tila ba ang mga galit ay nagiging pagibig na totoo
Kaya naman pagibig niya’y hinahangaan ko.




Ngunit isang araw, habang ang dilag ay naparaan sa parke..
May tunog na sa kanya’y tumawag, napakatamis na salita ang binigkas ng isang lalake sa kasama nitong babae..
Mga salitang ni minsan ay hindi niya narinig na ibinulong sa kanya ng nobyo,
Nalusaw ang babae, tila ba nawasak ang kanyang puso..
Dahil ang lalake palang iyon ay ang ginoong kanyang sinisinta.


Umuwi ang babae sa kanilang bahay, umiyak ng husto.
Tinanong ang sarili kung “kulang paba ang lahat ng sakripisyo?”
Naghihinagpis ang magandang dilag ng gabing iyon.
Ni hindi siya kumain, di niya maitago ang pagkabigo.

Dumating ang kanyang ama kinabukasan, hindi natiis ang kalungkutan ng anak
Kinatok ang pinto, hiningi ang sagot ng anak sa tanong ngunit, katahimikan ay dumanak.
Di nagsasalita ang magandang dilag, kahit maka ilang beses mang tawagin ng ama.
Nagtaka ang ama, dahil kahit ganoon kalungkot ang kanyang anak, kilala niya ito.
Sasagot ito sa kanya dahil sila ay sadyang malapit sa isa’t isa.

Isa nalang ang naiisip na gawin ng ama, ang puwersahang pagpasok sa kwarto ng dilag.
Kaya, sinipa niya ang pinto ng buong pwersa. Ngunit, sa sandaling ito, mistula siyang bulag.
Dahil nakita niya ang kanyang pinangalagaang anak, na wala nang buhay.
Nagpakamatay ito dahil sa sobrang kalungkutan, nasa lapag, nakahandusay.

Ang dilag ay nagbigti. Sa sobrang higpit ng lubid, naputol ito.
Sa pagkahulog ng walang buhay niyang katawan, may natagpuang sulat sa kanyang kamay.
“Gusto ko sa aking libing, hawak ko ang isang pulang rosas, at sa taas ng aking kabaong, maglagay kayo ng isang kalapati, at wag niyong kalilitmutan na namatay ako para sa TOTOONG PAG-IBIG…”

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

xxxxxX SchOoL is oN aGaiN!!! Xxxxxx

I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL...

but i dont want to stay stuck at home so school is better..

BUT WITHOUT THE EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!

-karen-