Tuesday, September 13, 2011

M.E.D.I.C.A.L.S.C.H.O.O.L

ALL MY 4 AND HALF YEARS IN COLLEGE, I NEVER WANTED ANYTHING MORE
THAN TO GRADUATE, GET THAT DIPLOMA AND START MEDICAL SCHOOL. 

NOW THAT I AM HERE, IM THINKING OF GOING BACK TO MY PSYCH ROOTS
BECAUSE MED SCHOOL IS JUST TOO DARN HARD TO HANDLE. 

IRONIC AIN'T IT? THAT'S HOW FICKLE MINDED THIS IDLE LITTLE BRAIN RUNS.

PHYSIOLOGY, BIOCHEMISTRY, ANATOMY PLUS HISTOLOGY.

I JUST COULDN'T KEEP UP WITH WHAT MEDICINE IS ASKING ME TO SACRIFICE.

-PERSONAL, SOCIAL, & FAMILY TIME + FINANCIAL AND PSYCHOLOGICAL
INSTABILITIES ALONG THE WAY. 

IN THE END: WILL IT BE WORTH EVERYTHING?

WILL ALL THE HARD WORK AND YEARS OF DIFFICULTIES PAY OFF?

NOW MORE THAN EVER DO I DOUBT MY INTELLIGENCE. 
I KIND OF EXCELLED IN COLLEGE, (SOMEHOW) 
BUT MEDICAL SCHOOL JUST REQUIRES ONE TO
KISS THE BOOKS, 
ANALYZE AND KNOW EVERYTHING BY HEART, 
OR ELSE.... 

I GUESS, IM  JUST NOT READY YET FOR ALL THE SUDDEN HEAVINESS.

I GUESS, I REALLY WANT TO KNOW ME FIRST BEFORE OFFERING WHO I AM TO OTHERS.

I STILL HAVE TIME TO THINK ABOUT IT. 

IT HELPS THAT ALL THE PEOPLE THAT I LOVE SUPPORTS WHATEVER DECISION 
I WILL EVENTUALLY CHOOSE.
ESPECIALLY MY FAMILY. 
OH THIS FAMILY OF MINE,
WHAT'S NOT TO LOVE.

1 MORE SIGN IS ALL I NEED.

YES OR NO.

CORPORATE OR CONTINUE IT.